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Saturday, December 27, 2014

the perfect gift at midnight dream!

I always love when the night comes by. I always love the feeling when i look at the stars and wander what happened today, yesterday, and what will the day after look like. The stars only remain silent and stay at where they are, that's why i like stars. they glow but pretending to stay low. And as time goes by, as age grows older, i want to sit at midnight with 'someone that understand me the most', holding hands, talking and goofing around, and when we reach our peak we just keep staring at each other without words. Marvelous! 

That's enough. I had beautiful gift, an awesome one! Maybe some of you know that lately I'm at my downfall. Usually I'm a bright girl who always keep her faith, do anything and never stop trying her best for her project. That's why I got this title ' perfectionist ' and ' workaholic '. Even if I go to my hometown to take my recess time, I'll always sneak out to work, insist to open the laptop, read any literature, and write down the point. My friends often ask me "Don't you feel bored living your life like that?" and I say this to them "I learn more from reading and writing down the point of life from that, and if I'm super tantalized, there's no need for me to do that. But maturity of life doesn't measure by age or wealth but with experience that they develop in time". So. stop talking non sense about my character and start about the dream that I got, rite?

So. I had the "runaway dream" at somewhere that has ""chill, cold, yet beautiful scenery" with someone that I feel like "home". And because i will tell a lot about this matter let name it as "He". He has the same character as mine, almost in everything. The difference between us is how we do "our process", I always make a note but he just do anything without a note and just go straight. But we see the process as the same thing and not worry too much about the result as long as we have give our best at it. And we travel across cities to that somewhere. We haven't had much preparation actually, indeed it's spontaneous. Hahaha. I never experience about things like that so for the first time it feels weird and awkward. Fortunately he's so reliable so that we can go anywhere without much worries. Hahaha

From that moments, the moments of my dream, actually I don't want to wake up. I don't want to. Because I'm starting to feel that becomes my comfortable zone. I learn about a lot of things, even when there will be "hectic moments and rush hours" as long as we have clear mind and we have our faith to keep going on then we can do that, we can do anything with different paths. If in the A path we fail, then we can go through the B path, just keep going and keep going if you still want to see your dreams get reached, just run till your last breath to see your stars beneath the sky. Because if you feel you reach your bottom of your downfall, there will be nowhere to go deeper but there will be another way to rise up once again. Because as stars glow because of the sun's light, we can find our happiness as long as we can find the light.

I wake up from that dream. My precious dream. My unforgettable dream. With valuable person. And even I can't say this from my lips maybe my stare and my written-words will tell you "Thank you for this lesson and thank you for everything". I want to tell "He" something, and when you need my hand then reach that, if you need my shoulder to sober up then I'll broaden it for you, there will be a place for us. There will always be ways for us, keep believing that we can do that and may Alloh do the rest (: 


Sincerely, dear

Z

2 comments:

  1. sini aku peluk dulu
    XOXO

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    1. thank you daniii!! for your warm hug and for everything

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